Kusinkhasinkha

Mu July 2013, ndinachita ngozi yomwe inandipangitsa kuthyoka chigaza komanso kutuluka magazi muubongo. Ndili mchipatala, sindinkadziwa momwe moyo wanga usinthire. Ndinauzidwa kuti sindingagwire ntchito milungu isanu ndi umodzi, osachepera, zomwe, m'malingaliro mwanga, sizinatheke chifukwa ndinali mayi wopanda mayi, ndipo kusagwira ntchito sikunali kotheka. Ndidaganiza zopumula sabata limodzi kapena awiri ndikubwerera kuntchito. Ndikosavuta kuganiza kuti mutagona mu bedi lachipatala mutapatsidwa mankhwala, koma ndikangofika kunyumba zenizeni zovulalazi zidagunda kwambiri.

Ndinkangosunga zisonyezo chifukwa milungu ingapo chichitikireni ngoziyo sinachite bwino. Sindikanatha kukweza mapazi anga, kotero ndinayenera kuthandizidwa kuyenda; masomphenya anga anali osalala, ndinali ndi vertigo, sindinathenso kutchula, ndinasiya kumva kukoma ndi kununkhiza, ndinkalimbana ndi kulumikizana kuti ndilembe, sindinathe kuthana ndi kuwala ndi phokoso, sindinapeze mawu, zokumbukira zinali yosamveka bwino kapena yotayika… ndipo ndinali wamantha.

M'kupita kwa nthawi, zizindikiro zakunja ndi zowonekera zidachepa. Ndimatha kuyenda, ndimatha kuwona, ndipo ndimatha kutchula kwambiri. Nditamasulidwa ndi wothandizira pantchito kuti ndiyende, ndinabwerera kuntchito kenako kenako ndinayambiranso ntchito yathunthu. Palibe amene amadziwa kuti ndimayenda maola awiri patsiku ndi chizindikiritso ... Ndidamva kuti palibe chomwe ndingachite. Ndimayenera kugwira ntchito molimbika kawiri kuti ndikwaniritse zomwe ndidachita ndisanavulazidwe. Ndinkakhala ndi kutopa kwambiri m'maganizo kumapeto kwa sabata lantchito kotero kuti ndimatha kumapeto kwa sabata ndikugona. Munthawi imeneyi, ndimangomva kuchokera kwa abwenzi, abale ndi anzanga za momwe ndachira. Kubwerera kotani nanga! Ndiwe wankhondo! Omwe anali nane sanamvetse kukula kwa zomwe ndimakumana nazo, chifukwa ndimawoneka bwino. Sindikufuna kuti aliyense kuntchito adziwe, chifukwa ndimafunikira ntchito yanga. Ndinkadziwanso kuti zotsatira zanga zinali zabwino kwambiri kuposa zambiri zovulala muubongo zomwe ndimamva kuti ndiyenera kupitiliza ndikuthana nazo. Zotsatira zake, ndinakhumudwa ndikudzimva kuti ndili ndekhandekha.

Kwa zaka zingapo, ndimapitilizabe kulimbana ndi ma vertigo, kufooka kwazindikiritso, osalawa kapena kununkhiza, kusakhazikika, kutopa m'maganizo komanso mantha akulu. Ndinali ndi chithandizo chonse chamankhwala chomwe ndimafuna pachiyambi, koma chithandizo chomwe chidaperekedwa ndi inshuwaransi chidatha. Matenda anga anali osayembekezereka, omwe amafala ndi kuvulala kwaubongo. Dokotala wamaubongo sanathe kunena ngati nditha kubwerera kwa yemwe ndinali kale, ndipo ndinazindikira kuti anthu azaumoyo achita zonse zomwe angathe kuchita kuti andithandizire.

Ndinkadziwa kuti kuchira kwanga kudali kwa ine, zomwe zimandipatsa mphamvu komanso zowopsa. Ndinali ndi ana anga aamuna oti aziwathandiza, ndipo ndinali wotsimikiza kupeza mtundu wa ine yemwe angachite izi. Katswiri wa ubongo, nthawi ina, anatchula kusinkhasinkha. Ndinapita pa intaneti kuti ndidziwe kusinkhasinkha, koma kuchuluka kwake ndizambiri, motero ndidangopeza zanga. Ubongo wanga umalakalaka bata, chifukwa chake ndimaganiza ngati ndingakhale chete kwa mphindi zochepa tsiku lililonse ndiye kuti mwina ndizomwe zimafunika kudzitsitsimutsa ndikukhala ndi chipiriro chokwaniritsa zosowa za tsikulo.

Kusinkhasinkha kwakhala chisomo changa chopulumutsa ndipo ndikupitilizabe kuchichita tsiku lililonse. Ndikusinkhasinkha, ndinapeza mtundu wabwino wa ine ndekha. Pomwe kuchira kwanga kumachedwa, kusinkhasinkha kunandithandiza kuvomereza mayendedwe ake. Kusokonezeka kunachepa ndipo vertigo pamapeto pake adachoka. Ndinaganiza kuti ubongo wanga ndi gridi yamagetsi, ndipo kutuluka kwa magazi kumafalikira, mphamvu idagwedezeka ndipo kusinkhasinkha kwabwezeretsa mphamvu pang'onopang'ono. M'kupita kwa nthawi, zovuta zamalingaliro zidakulirakulira, ndipo mwanjira zina, zidasinthidwa kukhala mtundu wina wamphamvu zakuzindikira. Zili ngati kuti njira za neural zidadzichotsanso. Sindikadakhala wokonda kudziwa zambiri, koma tsopano ndili. M'mbuyomu, ndinali wotanganidwa kwambiri kuti ndimve fungo la maluwa, koma tsopano ndimatha kukhala chete m'njira yomwe imandilola kuti ndiphunzire ndikuyamikira moyo. Asanavulazidwe, ndimakumana ndi zovuta pamoyo wanga nthawi yayitali kwambiri, koma ndikangobedwa kuthana ndi zofunikirazi, tsopano ndikuphunzira kuphweka ndi kukhazikika. Ndimakumanabe ndi ma vertigo apa ndi apo, mphamvu zanga zakumva ndi kununkhira zidachira, koma zasokonekera. Mwachitsanzo, chokoleti cha mkaka chomwe ndimakonda - tsopano chimakoma ngati dothi.

Inde, ndine munthu wosiyana kuposa kale. Ndizachidziwikire, koma zowona. Sindinganene kuti ndine wokondwa kuti ndinali ndi TBI, koma ndine wokondwa kuti ndinali ndi zochitika pamoyo zomwe zinandichepetsa ndikundipangitsa kuzindikira kuti sindinali ndekha polera ana anga ndipo ndikufunika kukhala wokonzeka kupempha thandizo. Kunyada kopusa kunalowedwa m'malo ndi chisomo. Chisomo chofikira ndikulola ena kuti andithandizire momwe ndikadawathandizira.

Ngati mwapulumuka kumene kuvulala kwaubongo, ulendo wanu ukhoza kukhala wosiyana kwambiri ndi wanga. Palibe ulendo wofanana. Kusataya chiyembekezo, mantha, kusatetezeka kwachuma, komanso kuwonongeka kovulaza kudzatha pakapita nthawi. Ndikudziwa kuti njirayo imakhala yovuta kwambiri kupirira nthawi zina. Ndikukulimbikitsani kuti mukhale omasuka komanso okonzeka kuyesa chilichonse chomwe chingathandize. Mudzamva bwino kukhala ndi mphamvu pakuchira kwanu. Kuphatikiza pa kusinkhasinkha, ndikukulimbikitsani kuti muyesere masewera amisili komanso / kapena zaluso. Ndakhala wopenta utoto… ndani adadziwa? Kuphatikiza apo, chida chachikulu chothandizira ndi Brain Injury Alliance yaku Colorado.  https://biacolorado.org/