Ulendo Wanga Ndi Kusuta

Moni kumeneko. Dzina langa ndi Kayla Archer ndipo ndayambiranso kusuta. Novembala ndi mwezi wosiya utsi mdziko lonse, ndipo ndabwera kudzakuwuzani zaulendo wanga wosiya kusuta.

Ndakhala ndikusuta kwa zaka 15. Ndinayamba chizolowezi ndili ndi zaka 19. Malinga ndi CDC, achikulire 9 mwa 10 omwe amasuta amayamba asanakwanitse zaka 18, motero ndidatsalira pang'ono ndi chiwerengerocho. Sindinaganizepo kuti ndidzakhala wosuta. Makolo anga onse awiri amasuta, ndipo ndili mwana ndinayamba kuzolowera. Pazaka 15 zapitazi, ndakhala ndikugwiritsa ntchito kusuta ngati luso lothana ndi mavuto, komanso ngati chowiringula ndikuchezera ndi ena.

Nditakwanitsa zaka 32, ndidaganiza kuti paumoyo wanga ndi thanzi langa ndiyenera kuyang'anitsitsa chifukwa chomwe ndimasutira, kenako ndikuyesetsa kuti ndisiye. Ndinali nditakwatiwa, ndipo mwadzidzidzi ndinkafuna kukhala ndi moyo kosatha kuti ndigawane zomwe ndakumana nazo ndi mwamuna wanga. Mwamuna wanga sanandikakamize kuti ndisiye kusuta, ngakhale iyenso samasuta. Ndinangodziwa, pansi pamtima, kuti zifukwa zomwe ndimadzipatsira kuti ndisute sizinasunge madzi ambiri. Chifukwa chake, ndidalemba, ndidazindikira kuti ndi liti pomwe ndizisankhira kusuta, ndipo ndidapanga dongosolo. Ndidauza abale anga onse ndi abwenzi kuti ndisiya kusuta pa Okutobala 1, 2019. Ndagula chingamu, mbewu za mpendadzuwa, ndikutulutsa zonse ndikuyembekeza kuti ndikhale otanganidwa m'manja ndi mkamwa. Ndinagula ulusi wopusa ndipo ndinabweretsa masingano anga kubisala - podziwa kuti manja osagwira sangakhale abwino. Seputembara 30, 2019, ndidasuta ndudu ya theka la ndudu, ndikumvetsera nyimbo zanga zongotuluka (kuyimba paketi yanga ya utsi) kenako ndikuchotsa zoyatsira phulusa ndi zoyatsira moto. Ndinasiya kusuta mu Okutobala 1, osasowa koma tsiku limodzi lothandizidwa ndi chingamu. Sabata yoyamba idadzazidwa ndi malingaliro (makamaka osakwiya) koma ndimagwira ntchito molimbika kuti nditsimikizire zakumvazo ndikupeza maluso osiyanasiyana othana nawo (kuyenda, kuchita yoga) kuti ndithandizire kukhala wosasangalala.

Sindinaphonye kwenikweni kusuta pambuyo pamwezi woyamba. Moona mtima, nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndikumva kununkhira ndikumamva kukoma pang'ono. Ndinkakonda kuti zovala zanga zonse zimanunkhiza bwino komanso kuti ndimasunga ndalama zambiri (mapaketi anayi pamlungu awonjezeredwa pafupifupi $ 4, ndiwo $ 25.00 pamwezi). Ndinkoluka kwambiri, ndipo zokolola izi m'miyezi yachisanu zinali zodabwitsa. Sizinali zonse agalu agalu ndi utawaleza ngakhale. Kukhala ndi khofi wanga m'mawa sikunali chimodzimodzi popanda ndudu, ndipo nthawi zopanikizika zimakumana ndi nkhanza zachilendo zomwe sindinazolowere. Ndinakhalabe wopanda utsi, mpaka Epulo wa 100.00.

Chilichonse chokhala ndi COVID-19 chikamenyedwa, ndidathedwa nzeru ngati wina aliyense. Mwadzidzidzi zochita zanga zidatayidwa, ndipo sindinathe kuwona anzanga ndi abale kutetezedwa. Momwe moyo udaliri wopepuka, kudzipatula kunali njira yotetezeka kwambiri. Ndidayesa kuwonjezera nthawi yomwe ndimakhala ndikuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, kuti ndichepetse nkhawa, ndipo ndimamaliza yoga m'mawa, kuyenda mtunda wamakilomita atatu ndi galu wanga masana, komanso ola limodzi la Cardio ndikamaliza ntchito. Komabe, ndimadzimva kukhala wosungulumwa kwambiri, ndipo ndimakhala ndi nkhawa ngakhale ndimaginidwe endorphins omwe ndimatumiza mthupi langa ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi. Anzanga ambiri adachotsedwa ntchito, makamaka omwe ankagwira ntchito m'malo owonetsera zisudzo. Amayi anga anali pantchito, ndipo bambo anga anali kugwira ntchito ndi maola ochepa. Ndinayamba kuwonongeka pa Facebook, ndikulimbana kuti ndisiye kuipa konse kwa matenda amtunduwu omwe adayamba ndale m'njira yomwe sindinawonepo. Ndidayang'ana kuchuluka kwa anthu aku Colorado ndi kufa kwawo maola awiri aliwonse, ndikudziwa bwino kuti boma silisintha manambala mpaka 4:00 pm nditamira, ngakhale mwakachetechete komanso kwa ine ndekha. Ndinali m'madzi, osadziwa choti ndingadzichitire ine kapena wina aliyense pankhaniyi. Zikumveka bwino? Ndikuganiza kuti ena a inu mukuwerenga izi zitha kufanana ndi zonse zomwe ndalemba. Zinali zochitika zadziko lonse (chabwino, zapadziko lonse lapansi) kulowa mwamantha komwe kunali kukhalapo kwa anthu m'miyezi yoyambirira ya COVID-19, kapena monga tonse tadziwira - chaka cha 2020.

Sabata lachiwiri la Epulo, ndidatenganso ndudu. Ndinakhumudwa kwambiri, chifukwa ndinali nditasuta utsi kwa miyezi isanu ndi umodzi. Ine ndinali nditagwira ntchitoyo; Ndidamenya nkhondo yabwino. Sindinakhulupirire kuti ndinali wofooka kwambiri. Ndidasutabe. Ndidakhala milungu iwiri ndikusuta monga kale pomwe ndidasiyanso. Ndinali wamphamvu ndipo sindinasute utsi mpaka banja litapita tchuthi mu Juni. Ndinadabwitsidwa ndimomwe zimawonekera kutengera zomwe ndimachita. Palibe amene adabwera kwa ine nati, “Simukusuta? Ndiye wopunduka ndipo simuli ozizira. ” Ayi, m'malo mwake omwe amasuta gululi amadzikhululukira, ndipo ndidatsala ndekha kuti ndilingalire za malingaliro anga. Zinali zoyambitsa mantha kwambiri, koma pamapeto pake ndinasuta paulendowu. Ndidasutanso paulendo wina wabanja mu Seputembala. Ndinadzilungamitsa ndekha kuti ndinali kutchuthi, ndipo malamulo a kudziletsa samagwira ntchito patchuthi. Ndagwa m'galimoto ndipo ndabwerera kwakanthawi kambiri kuyambira nthawi yatsopano ya COVID-19. Ndadzimenyera ndekha za izi, ndimalota ndikadakhala kuti munthu ameneyo ndimasiya kusuta malonda ndikulankhula kwinaku ndikuphimba pakhosi panga, ndikupitilizabe kudzipukusa ndi sayansi yakufotokozera chifukwa chomwe kusuta kuli koopsa pa thanzi langa. Ngakhale ndi zonsezi, ndinagwa. Ndimayambiranso kuyenda kenako ndikupunthwa.

Mu nthawi ya COVID-19, ndamva mobwerezabwereza kuti ndiziwonetsere chisomo. Aliyense akuchita zonse zomwe angathe. ” "Izi sizachilendo." Komabe, zikafika paulendo wanga woti ndileke ndodo ya khansa, sindipeza mpumulo pakungolanda mosalekeza komanso kunyoza malingaliro anga. Ndikuganiza kuti ndichinthu chabwino, chifukwa ndikufuna kukhala osasuta kuposa chilichonse. Palibe chowiringula chachikulu chodzipatsa poizoni momwe ndimachitira ndikapuma. Komabe, ndimavutika. Ndimavutikira, ngakhale ndili ndi malingaliro anzeru kumbali yanga. Ndikuganiza, komabe, kuti anthu ambiri akuvutika pakadali pano, ndi chinthu china kapena chimzake. Malingaliro akuti ndi ndani, ndi kudzisamalira kumawoneka kosiyana kwambiri tsopano kuposa momwe adapangira chaka chapitacho pomwe ndidayamba ulendo wanga wosiya utsi. Sindili ndekha - ndipo inunso simuli nokha! Tiyenera kuyesetsabe, ndikupitilizabe kusintha, ndikudziwa kuti zina mwa zomwe zinali zowona ndizowona tsopano. Kusuta ndi koopsa, chenicheni. Kusuta fodya ndi ulendo wautali, pansi pake. Ndiyenera kupitilizabe kumenya nkhondo yabwino ndikudzinyalanyaza ndekha nthawi zina ndikamagonjera. Sizitanthauza kuti ndatayika pankhondo, nkhondo imodzi yokha. Titha kuchita izi, iwe ndi ine. Titha kupitilizabe, kupitilizabe, zilizonse zomwe zikutanthauza kwa ife.

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