Kushungurudzika uye Hutano hwepfungwa

Baba vemwanakomana wangu vakashaya zvisingatarisirwi makore mana apfuura; anga aine makore makumi matatu nematatu uye akaonekwa aine post-traumatic kusagadzikana kwepfungwa, kushushikana uye kushushikana gore risati rasvika. Panguva yekufa kwake mwanakomana wangu aive nemakore matanhatu, uye ini ndini ndaimubaya moyo nenhau apa yangu yainge ichipwanya ndichiona kurwadziwa kwake.

Chikonzero cherufu chakaramba chisingazivikanwe kwemwedzi yakati wandei. Huwandu hwemameseji nemibvunzo yandakatambira kubva kune vandisingazive nezve kufa kwake zvaive zvisingaverengeke. Vazhinji vakafungidzira kuti akazviuraya. Mumwe munhu akandiudza kuti vaida chaizvo kuziva chikonzero chake cherufu nekuti zvaizovapa kuvhara. Panguva iyoyo ndakanga ndiri muchikamu chehasha chekushungurudzika ndikaudza munhu iyeye kuvharwa kwavo hakuna zvakwaireva kwandiri sezvo ndaive nemwanakomana wekurera ndega asingazombovhara. Ndakanga ndakatsamwira munhu wese nekufunga kuti kurasikirwa kwavo kwakakura kudarika kwemwanakomana wangu. Ndivanaani vaive ivo vekufunga kuti vaive nenzvimbo muhupenyu hwaJim apo vazhinji vavo vanga vasina kutaura naye mumakore! Ndakatsamwa.

Mumusoro mangu, kufa kwake kwaive kwaitika kwatiri uye hapana aigona kunzwisisa kurwadziwa kwedu. Kunze kwekunge, vanogona. Mhuri dzevakarwa muhondo uye avo vakarasikirwa nemudiwa kune zvisingazivikanwe zvikonzero vanoziva chaizvo zvandanga ndichipfuura. Mune yedu kesi, mhuri uye shamwari dzevakaendeswa veterans. Masoja akaendeswa anowana huwandu hwakanyanya hwekushungurudzika paanotumirwa kunzvimbo dzehondo. Jim aive muAfghanistan kwemakore mana.

Alan Bernhardt (2009) muKukwira kune iro Dambudziko Rekurapa OEF / OIF Veterans neCo - inoitika PTSD uye Kushungurudzwa Kwezvinodhaka, Smith College Zvidzidzo MuSocial Work, inoona kuti maererano neimwe ongororo (Hoge et al., 2004), yakakwira muzana yevarwi veMasoja neMarine vaishandira muIraq neAfghanistan vakasangana nekunetseka kwakanyanya kwekurwa. Semuenzaniso, 95% yeMarines uye 89% emasoja eArmy anoshanda muIraq akasangana nekurwiswa kana kuvandirwa, uye 58% yemasoja eVarwi anoshanda muAfghanistan akazviona izvi. Zvikamu zvepamusoro zvemapoka matatu aya zvakasanganawo neanouya artillery, roketi, kana moto wepasi (92%, 86%, uye 84%, zvichiteerana), vakaona zvitunha kana zvisaririra zvevanhu (94%, 95%, uye 39%, zvichiteerana), kana kuziva mumwe munhu akakuvara zvakaipisisa kana kuurawa (87%, 86%, uye 43%, zvichiteerana). Jim akaverengerwa mune izvi zviverengero, kunyangwe hazvo aitsvaga kurapwa mumwedzi isati afa iye zvinogona kunge zvakanonoka.

Imwe nguva mushure memariro acho pakagadzirisa guruva rayo, uye mushure mekuratidzira kukuru, ini nemwanakomana wangu takagara nevabereki vangu. Kwegore rekutanga, kuenda uku kwakava chishandiso chedu chikuru chekutaurirana. Mwanakomana wangu pachigaro chekumashure aine bvudzi rake rakadzoserwa kumashure uye maziso matsva aivhura moyo wake obuditsa nezve manzwiro ake. Ini ndinobata kuona kwababa vake kuburikidza nemaziso ake uye nemarondedzero aanonzwa manzwiro ake, uye iro rinopfungaira padivi kunyemwerera. James aidurura moyo wake ari pakati pekukakama kwemotokari paInterstate 270. Ini ndaibata bata vhiri rangu ndokudzora misodzi.

Vanhu vazhinji vakakurudzira kuti ndimuendese kunorayirwa, kuti kufa kamwe kamwe kwababa vake veteran kwaizove chinhu chemwana chaaizotambura nacho. Vaimbove komuredhi vechiuto vakakurudzira kuti tibatane nemapoka ekukurudzira uye tinodzoka nyika yese. Ini ndaingoda kuzviita nenguva ye8: 45am bhero rechikoro uye kuenda kubasa. Ini ndaida kugara zvakajairika sezvinobvira. Kwatiri, zvakajairika zvaienda kuchikoro uye kushanda mazuva ese uye chiitiko chinonakidza pakupera kwevhiki. Ndakachengeta James muchikoro chake chimwe chete; anga ari kukireshi panguva yekufa kwababa vake uye ini ndaisada kuita shanduko dzakawandisa. Isu takanga tatotamira kune imwe imba uye yaive hondo hombe kwaari. James akangoerekana atariswa kwete neni chete asi, nasekuru nasekuru natete vake.

Mhuri yangu neshamwari vakava yakakura rutsigiro system. Ini ndaigona kutarisira amai vangu kutora pamusoro pese pandainzwa kuremerwa nemanzwiro kana kuda zororo. Mazuva akaomesesa aive apo mwanakomana wangu aibata-zvakanaka aigona kuzopunzika pamusoro pechakudya kana nguva yekugeza. Mamwe mazuva aimuka mangwanani achichema kubva kuhope pamusoro pababa vake. Pamazuva iwayo ndaipfeka huso hwangu hwakashinga, ndaitora zuva rekubasa nekuchikoro ndoswera ndichitaura naye ndichimunyaradza. Rimwe zuva, ndakazviwana ndakakiiwa mumba mangu ndichichema kupfuura chero imwe nguva muhupenyu hwangu. Zvino, paive nemazuva andaisakwanisa kumuka pamubhedha nekuti kushushikana kwangu kwakandiudza kana ndikabuda pamusuwo ndaigona kufa uye ipapo mwanakomana wangu aizove nevabereki vaviri vakafa. Gumbeze rinorema rekushushikana rakafukidza muviri wangu uye huremu hwebasa rakandisimudza panguva imwe chete. Ndiine tii inopisa muruoko amai vangu vakandidhonza kubva pamubhedha, uye ini ndakaziva kuti yaive nguva yekusvika kune nyanzvi uye kutanga kupora kushungurudzika.

Ndiri kuonga kushanda munzvimbo inonzwira tsitsi, yakachengeteka kwandinogona kutaura zvakajeka nevandinoshanda navo nezve hupenyu hwangu. Rimwe zuva panguva yekudya kwemasikati uye kudzidza chiitiko, takatenderera tafura uye tichigovana zvakawanda zvehupenyu zviitiko. Mushure mekugovana yangu, vanhu vashoma vakauya kwandiri mushure uye vakandiudza kuti ndibate Chirongwa Chekubatsira Vashandi. Ichi chirongwa chaive mwenje unotungamira wandaida kupfuura nawo. Vakapa ini nemwanakomana wangu zvikamu zvekurapa izvo zvakatibatsira kugadzira maturusi ekutaurirana kutibatsira kutarisana neshungu uye kutarisira hutano hwepfungwa.

Kana iwe, waunoshanda naye, kana mudiwa ari kuenda panguva dzakaomarara nematambudziko ehutano hwepfungwa, svika kunze, taura. Kune anogara aripo mumwe munhu anoda kukubatsira kuburikidza nazvo.