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Ngokusho kwesichazamazwi se-Oxford, incazelo ye Ukutakula is “ukubuyela esimweni esivamile sempilo, ingqondo, noma amandla.”

Uhambo lwami lomdlavuza lwaqala ngo-July 15, 2011. Njengoba umyeni wami nendodakazi yami bengibambe izandla, ngalalela udokotela wami ethi “Karen, ukuhlola kwakho kwembula ukuthi unomdlavuza.” Ngalalela futhi ngakhala ngesikhathi umndeni wami uqoqa ngokucophelela lonke ulwazi oludingekayo ngezinyathelo ezilandelayo zokwelashwa kwami.

Ekuqaleni kuka-Agasti ngenza i-hysterectomy odokotela ababeqinisekise ukuthi cishe bazowunakekela umdlavuza. Lapho ngiphaphama ekuhlinzweni, udokotela wangibingelela ekamelweni lami lasesibhedlela lapho angitshela khona izindaba ezibuhlungu zokutholakala komdlavuza kuma-lymph nodes amaningi. Ukususwa kwama-lymph nodes kwakungase kwenze umdlavuza usabalale nakakhulu. Ukuphela kwendlela yokwelapha eyayitholakala kumdlavuza wami wesigaba sesi-4 kwakuyi-chemotherapy (i-chemo) kanye nemisebe. Ngemva kwesikhathi sokululama samasonto ayisithupha, ukwelashwa kwami ​​kwaqala. Uhambo lwansuku zonke oluya elebhu ye-radiation kanye nokufakwa kwe-chemo yamasonto onke, okungesinye sezikhathi ezinzima kakhulu empilweni yami, nokho kwakukhona ubuhle kulolu hambo. Ukwelashwa ngemisebe kwangishiya ngikhathele, futhi ikhemo yangenza ngazizwa ngingcono izinsuku ezine kuya kwezinhlanu ngemva kokwelashwa ngakunye. Isisindo sehla futhi ngaphelelwa amandla. Isikhathi sami esiningi besichitha ngifuna ithemba futhi ngithandazela ukuthi nginikwe isikhathi esengeziwe nabantu engibathandayo kakhulu, umndeni wami. Phakathi namasonto ami ayisishiyagalombili ngikwelashwa, indodakazi yami yamemezela ukuthi yayilindele umzukulu wethu wesibili ngoMeyi. Angizange ngikholwe ukuthi imizwa yami yayizoshintsha kanjani kusukela ekujabuleni okuphelele kuye ekuphelelweni ithemba lapho ngicabanga ngokufika komzukulu wami. Kwakuyinkathi yoshintsho ekululameni kwami. Ngakhetha ukuqiniseka ukuthi ngizoyibamba le encane ezandleni zami. Impi yayisaqhubeka! Esinye isikhathi esijabulisayo saholela kwesinye, futhi sawushintsha wonke umbono wami. Ngangizimisele ukuthi lesi sifo sasingeke singiqede. Nganginabantu engangihlangana nabo, izindawo engangizoya kuzo, nezinto okufanele ngizenze! Nganquma ukuba iqhawe elinamandla kunawo wonke!

Impatho yayinzima, kodwa ngakhuthazela. Ngomhla ziyisi-9 kuZibandlela wezi-2011, ngathola izindaba zokuthi ngangingenawo umdlavuza.. Ngo-May 28, 2012 kwazalwa umzukulu wami, uFinn.

Emuva encazelweni yokutakula. Impilo yami isiluleme, umzimba wami uqinile, kodwa ingqondo yami ayikaze ilulame. Ayikaze ibuyele esimweni sayo sangaphambilini, futhi ngethemba ukuthi ayisoze yabuyela. Manje ngithatha isikhathi sokwehlisa ijubane, ngijabulele ubuhle bezwe elingizungezile. Ngiyakwazisa ukuhleka kwabazukulu bami, ubusuku nemini nomyeni wami, isikhathi engisinikwe nomndeni wami, kanye nenjabulo elula yokuphila kwansuku zonke. Futhi nginomngane omusha omkhulu, igama lakhe nguFinn. Amandla ami awazange abuyele ezingeni lawo langaphambi komdlavuza. Manje senginamandla kunangaphambili, futhi ngikulungele lokho okuza kimi. Izinto ebezibonakala zinzima ngaphambi kwempi yami yomdlavuza, manje sekubonakala kulula ukuzilawula. Uma ngingawunqoba umdlavuza, ngingenza noma yini. Impilo imnandi futhi nginokuthula.

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